Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Life is hard.

It is 1am after a very long day, and let me just tell you that Tuesday sucked.

After a very bad morning of not feeling well, but making it to work, I found out that one of my friends passed away this (tue) morning.

His name is Aaron, he is 25, he is a great person, and very well the most physically fit and athletic person I know. He actually just completed a triathlon in May to give you an idea of how physically fit he was.


He suffered cardiac arrest while working out at the rec center on campus. The employees performed CPR and contacted 911 who then rushed him to a local hospital where he was pronounced dead.

I am 1000% shocked, and none of this seems real. It doesn't seem possible, and life right now is feeling very hard. I have been somewhat of a basket case on and off all day.

Aaron is the first person to pass since my dad died in December, and the fact that he died of cardiac arrest makes the whole situation worse. I have had friends and young people pass around me before, and it hurts, but I am usually okay. However, I have never personally known a young adult to die of cardiac arrest. As soon as I read those words, all of the feelings and emotions from my dad just came rushing back.

I know it's normal, and it will get better with time, blah, blah, blah. Right now I am just upset and confused. My husbands uncle just spent a week in the hospital from a heart attack, and one of my managers at work had a stroke last week.

There have been many other heart related issues with people in my family, my husbands family, and just people I know in general during the past year. Can we quit with the heart problems now? Really, I don't know how much I can handle.

So at this point I don't really know if I am upset about Aaron passing, or if it is mainly all of the feeling and emotions stirring up again from my dad passing away. I wish this was just a bad dream and everything will be normal when I wake up again. Except it won't and that really sucks.

I don't know when I will be back to the rec center on campus to work out (probably august), but I know that the next time I step foot in that building, I will think of Aaron. It won't happen purposefully, but it will happen.. I know myself pretty well. I also know that it will sadden me and most likely I will shed a tear (or ten) at knowing that I am benefiting from exercising on the very ground that my friend passed away on. That sucks too.

I don't want to start rambling, I just needed to get this out. If you are the praying kind, will you please pray for Aaron, his family, my friends, and me and my husband. We will miss him and I am so thankful that we randomly had lunch with him last week.

Life is unexpected.

The message that my dad left for me when he died was that there is a time and a place for everything.

I guess it was Aaron's time, and I hope he is in a wonderful place.


I took this picture of him at our groups Halloween party. He was J.D. from Scrubs :)

16 comments:

Erin said...

So sorry for all your struggles. You're right, it will get better in time - but that doesn't help much when you're in the thick of it!

Thinking of you ...

The New Mrs said...

I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your friend's family.

Blondie said...

I am so sorry about your friend. I know what you are going through. Anytime someone I know gets diagnosed with cancer or passes away from cancer I think of my dad. I always get sad. It is still hard to deal with especially around Father's Day. People use to tell me that in time it would get better, it never helped. My dad use to work part time at disney and the first time I went there with my girls I cried. You are in my thoughts and prayers along with Aaron's family.
p.s thank you for the kind words about what I am going though, it means more than you know.
Hang in there, and remember we are here for you.

d.a.r. said...

I am so sorry for your loss :(

Lil' Woman said...

I'm so sorry for your loss sweetie! : )

katie + bret said...

Sorry Kelly. Hang in there sweetheart. xx

Kaitlin said...

I am so sorry for your loss, I will be sending strong prayers your way!

jen + ryan said...

i'll be praying for everyone involved... hang in there.

Jennifer said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I will keep you and your husband and his family and friends in my prayers.

Lindsey said...

Oh my gosh, this is so sad. I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers and hugs!

Becky said...

oh wow! That is terrible! I can't believe that...I mean he is so fit and looks in perfect condition...did he have an underlying heart problem or something? This scares me b/c you just never know...praying for you and his family...so sorry :(

DocE said...

I'm so sorry for your loss and I am thinking of everyone dealing with his loss. Hugs to you.

yours truly... said...

You're in my prayers sweet girl. Hang in there....

*kimmie* said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. My prayers are with you and your family!

Legallyblondemel said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.

Chic Runner said...

I saw your tweet about this and it broke my heart. I will be keeping you and his entire family in his prayers. It's hard to lose anyone and a young life is especially difficult. Thanks for posting this.

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